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| One of those days. I've realized that I have let myself become too open with certain people and I need to stop doing it. I just get burned. I let my emotions control me too much. I'm sick of school, GR, life. This week has been one for the weeks. I bust my butt for my classes and I'll be lucky to get a C in them. Why do people have to be so secretive (SP). Good golly, if there is something you don't want me to kow, just tell me. I hate being screwed over. I hate having feelings for people, and not boyfriend/girlfriend feelings either, the kind of feeling where I genuinely care for people and it leaves me empty, again. Oh well, life sucks. Why? B/c I let myself be open to others and care too much. I don't need this shit. | | |
| Shake N Bake- This week was one for the records. I worked. I slept. I went to work. I hung out with Kyle and others. I worked. I went to the dentist. No cavities. I am at peace with life. I stopped worrying. Life will come no matter what I do. Life is Life. I thought/ questioned myself this week a lot. One question I'm still dwelling upon is: What does it mean to be a Chrisitan? Does it mean that we are only supposed to listening Christian music? I think of the funny Jesus videos. Most of it is blasphmy(SP), but some parts I find to be true about Chrisitans. Do we always have to have to happy dappy. I think we're blind. I say this stating that we want or supposively want all to come to Christ, but we judge. Who in the world would want to become a Christian, when most of the time, we don't give people the time of day. We expect people to listen to us and respond by falling to their knees. Do we care about what happens for the church too much and those surrounding it? I like listening to Norah Jones. And now I'm listening to Eye of the Tiger. I loved when Mars Hill 56 played it. Time for the musical Katie's lead role in. | | |
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The Departed (Widescreen Edition)
By Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, Jack Nicholson, Mark Wahlberg, Martin Sheen, Ray Winstone, Vera Farmiga, Anthony Anderson, Alec Baldwin, Kevin Corrigan, James Badge Dale, David O'Hara, Mark Rolston, Robert Wahlberg, Kristen Dalton, J.C. MacKenzie, Mary Klug, Saurman Holzemer Peg, Robert 'Toshi' Kar Yun Chan, Gurdeep Singh
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Thanks to my father, not only does he think I gay, but I recently learned today that if you wear earrings and you're a guy, you must be a fag. Go figure?!?! Good thing it hadn't crossed my mind; being a fag. Work was amazingly fun today. I stained legs all day. Legs for tables, you sicko. Maybe I should start a leg staining company and put all tanning booths out of business. Instead of light bulbs killing you, I'll do it quicker with toxic chemicals. I wore my fox hat all day and my hair feels super greasy, yet kinda good. Okay, that's gross. Maybe I should invest in a shower with my smelly good manly, not fagish, body wash. Sleep is something I have not experienced to it's full capacity recently. I'd say within the last month I've slept two 7+ hours nights. My body feels like crap and today I was told that I look like I'm gaining weight. Therefore I feel fat and just eat more, but tomorrow I'm not going to eat much of anything. Why the crap do I care about what people say so much. "Because you're caring Andy and people love you" That opens another can of termites. This topic just keeps eatting away at me. forget about it. So I tried to figure my Fall 07' schedule. That's about 0% fun. | | |
| It's Friday!!! I've had a long week. Lack of sleep early on left me in a crabby, depressive mood the rest of the week. Sometimes I get really down on myself and I know I shouldn't. I'm super excited for this weekend, though. My best friend is going home with me and we're going to a see my favorite band. Lovedrug!!! It is a much needed concert. I'm really excited to see my family too. I missed McKenna's play tonight, so that's sad, but I'm going to watch it this weekend, with her and Koeze. The joys of having a 7 year old sister. Next weekend is Katie's play, which will be amazing, because one, Katie is the lead role and she's amazing. Alrighty, I'm off to bed, then getting up early to study. PS I got Sirdar!!! | | |
| Life's funny sometimes. Most of the time I don't understand it at all either. I've been fighting my emotions a lot recently. I know it all boils down to singleness. I sound like a goober, I know. But in all honesty, all my guy friends have that special someone. Do I not try? Is it not the right timing for me? I'm at work and some guy has bright cotton candy blue hair. Weird. Either way, yesterday was St. Valentine's Day and well my life makes me laugh. I don't mind though. Sure I lose sleep of the unknown and afraid of the feelings I have towards others. I contradict myself at times, which in turn makes me depressed and not a happy camper. On the lighter side I got paid today and wore a purple shirt. Random Andy Fact: My hearing is going out of my left ear, again. Tonight's plans: - Work - Do homework - Break the noisy heater my wonderful co-worker loves so much. :) Love Andy | | |
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